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Carroll Gardens is the only neighborhood
where I can take midnight walks
and still hear my footsteps.
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At this point in my life I miss more people than I have around.
this is when I start living in memories and dreams,
because all of my friends and family are all together there,
in the depth of my mind and past, still alive and well.
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I’ll try to smile sometimes
but then the absurdity of being here catches up again
and what I thought was “now”
turns into “would have been”.
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I drink gin with the same vigor
as I used to drink water
when I was a child.
Have my father’s alcoholic genes
finally caught up with my brain?
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I tried learning about your future,
but you were only the product of past.
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You shield children of yours from true sun
and dripping water of the upstairs AC unit.
you are a bird
but still more human than many.
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Summer arrived with
brightness
golden heat
blooming pomegranates
and sandy swimming suits,
Abandoned on the railing
of an old Brooklyn house,
in the exhaustion and haste
of lives lived fast.
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I write for people
who'll never read.
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You know what really hurts my heart?
You talk to me like I’m only in your past.
but I am here
I am here now.
I am always here and always now.
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I’m sketching our rain again.
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I’m not as fragile
as you imagined,
not as broken
as I thought.
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Take me wherever you took all your thoughts
after getting rid of me.
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Hunger is more all-consuming than anxiety.
you’ve just learned how to avoid it better.
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I take stupidity as my only god-given talent.
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Collecting fingers in my mouth.
have more?
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What a stupid idea to share them with you.
all strawberries came to be for me!
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Toys were your friends
and my gifts to loneliness.
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Laying on the skin of dead horses,
I could smell wilderness of thoughtless speed.
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Hands are my vision and hair is my balance.
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You were a payment for whatever I didn’t pay for.
Well worth it.
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I might look like a ghost,
but I have feelings like a living boy.
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You know nothing about writing,
but you lived in a careless, romantic,
Bukowski way,
drunk and smitten with your own existence,
this world belonged to you.
you were beautiful for that.
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For whatever reason,
you appeared and my life again started.
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I’m running through the phases of my life
like halls of the Met -
drunk with beauty
and ever shifting love,
never lingering too long,
scared of the closing hour.
ცირცე მელაპარაკა, თეთრი ქალღმერთი,
შენზე. არ ახსოვდი და მოვუყევი.
მოვუყევი და გაგიხსენა.
და მერე ნიჟარაში მომიახლოვდა
და როგორც კედლებზე ასული ფრესკა,
ამეკრო ტანზე და დამადნა თმაში.
მე ისევ სეთის ვარ,
ყოველთვის ვიყავი და
ყოველთვის ვიქნები.
რა კი,
ჩემი დიდი ხელოვნება,
გაცოცხლდება ხოლმე ხანდახან
როცა კვამლი დამწყვარი შხამის
შემისრუტავს და ჩამიყოლებს
გომბეშოს ტყავში
გაც და გაიმ,
ჩემი ძმები და ძველი მამები,
შემომესივნენ როგორც ცხენები.
შენ მუცელზე მაზიხარ.
რა გინდა, რატომ არ მიშვებ.
მე კი შენი ვარ,
ტყავ-გახეხილი,
მშიერი კობრა.
მენდელსონს რა ახსოვდა,
როცა რაველმა დაჭრა პომიდვრები.
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Did you know that if you smoke long enough
nicotine will eventually make you shit
and that's how you get him out -
shit by shit
you get him out.
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I put my cigarette in a flower pot
like you started,
and this lonely new “ash-tray”
now relies on me to feed it.
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you're mad that I cancelled on you?
do you know how many times I thought about you that fucking weekend??
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You know that light you gave me for my birthday?
That “light fixture”, you called it?
Sometimes it flickers when I light it
and the first thing I think
is if it only flickers
when you think about me..
or is that because every time it does
that stupid dance with the darkness
I think about you
and I hope you think about me too.
Were you even real?
I don’t question if what we had was real.
I know it was.
but I question your existence.
did I make you up in my head?
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I still haven’t read “Alice in Wonderland” you gave me.
I’m kind of scared that if I do,
you might be out of my memories then.
and I finally think about you all the time again.
I’m sorry I got carried away with life
and left you away and alone
by that river of my life.
I promise I still love you
and think about you always.
I even do coke now because of you.
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You know,
after a while
you're not “hot”
when you’re sad.
You’re just an old man
with a broken heart
who’s ugly
and unloved
and all you have
is your past.
and that’s when the
future starts.
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I never want this cigarette to finish
because I promised myself I would be in another universe by then
and I’m not ready
-
Broke a glass on my fucking fire escape
don’t go in there
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Take a sip
Take a bump
Take a little bit of everything
That life gives you
“Sup”
Take a nap
Take a shit
Take a little bit of everything
That life gives you
“Neat..”
Take with ice
Take without
Take a little bit of everything
That life gives you
“Nice”
Be a fool
Be an ass
Take a little bit of everything
That life gives you
“Cool”
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“Grass is always greener on the other side”…
Bruh,
grass don’t even grow ova here 🤙🏻
Dear Reader (if you exist),
If I've ever had pleasure to have crossed paths with you, I hope I
haven't failed to express my charmingly unhealthy obsession with
Paris and its place in culture, history and romance. And here are some of my
favorite Parisian places to visit.
Museums / Galleries:
1. Louvre
2.
Musée Rodin
3.
Musée Eugène Delacroix
4.
L'Atelier des Lumières
5.
Musée de l'Orangerie
6.
Musée de l'Armée
7.
Musée Maillol
8.
Musée du Service de
Santé des Armées
9.
Panthéon
10.
Versailles
11. Les Catacombes de Paris
12. Musée d'Orsay
13. Sacré-Cœur
14. Mire du Nord
15. Père-Lachaise
16. Cinémathèque Française – movie theater
17. Jardin de l'école de botanique – botanical garden / park
Bars and Restaurants:
3.
Septime
4.
Yard
5.
Bambino (my favorite)
7.
Mokonuts
8.
Septime La Cave - WINE
Coffee:
1.
Gramme
3.
Chocolate Alain Ducasse –
chocolatiers
4.
Chez Janou
Music:
Hotels:
2. Hotel Monge
